Okay, so I've never shared it here on LJ, but it's been quite a crazy June. First of all, I moved dorms. Away from the comfortable yet capitalist dorm and into the strange world of the University Residences inside of the campus. I still haven't gotten used to it, honestly. I'm still very much used to the system inside of MyPlace. And the University Residences make for a very different world. But I'll definitely get used to it in time. I don't have constant internet there, though. Apparently I have to ask for it to be installed myself.

In other events, around the second week of the school year, my grandfather (on my mother's side) died of heart failure. We did see it coming as his body was already deteriorating from diabetes and such, but it was still a sudden death. And for a week, everything has gone into a stand-still. His funeral was yesterday. And that day was also the birthday of my eldest guy cousin, also on my mom's side.

Maita, a friend of mine who I met though Marts and Cat, asked if we were close. I said that I couldn't say so, but we-- my family and my grandfather-- lived in the same house for a large part of my life, until I was 17. And then she hugged me and went, "You were close."

I guess she had a point there.

Let's have some contemplative Lumie shots under the cut.

( Soft sunlight in a bare, new dorm. )

I remember that the last time I came to Zambales, I took Emiko with me :D Now, I took Ulalume with me this time around...



( +8 more photos without plot or reason! )

I honestly think this is the worst semester for me, ever. Never have I shown so much emoness (and too little doll photos) on my LJ. But then again, I think I can blame Plurk and Twitter for eating up all my positive vibes.

Perhaps positive vibes are things you'd like to share immediately, so you don't find yourself so excited to elaborate on them over here on LJ. But maybe it was really the lack of those happy vibes circulating that brought me down as a whole this year.

Hm. Let's have a discussion, then, to get the happy vibes going--

What was the happiest moment you've felt this year so far? :3

Although it's been a while since I've posted regularly on LJ, here I am with something I've missed doing the most: doing a proper photoshoot with Lu XD


( So, what's under the Christmas tree this year? )

Merry Christmas to you all, LJ friends! :D

Speaking of time to give to friends, I suddenly feel all guilty that I haven't been able to keep a close enough eye on LJ as I should have. I have so many friends and things to see here, so why should I not keep my eye on it?

Siiiigh. This is when many social networking sites threaten to steal away all your attention. Quite sad :( I feel a little worse since distancing myself from LJ distances myself from some selected people who aren't on the sites I usually visit.

And come to think of it, it's been quite a while since I've posted anything with Lu here... well then, maybe I should tomorrow, as a sort of Christmas present :)

I miss you all, LJ-friends~ Especially those who I don't get to see on Plurk or Facebook.

As technology fails and leaves me in the barren seat of reality, I find solace in the pages of books I have almost forgotten if not for my being a student of Literature. If I was not a Literature major, I would have sworn that by now, I would be clenching my teeth in sheer irritation, waiting for this machine and the wires attached to it to link me to the rest of the world I know and love.

But the books have returned me to what I have missed: this silence, this peacefulness, this profound solemnity that only some time taken amidst the rush of time, the ticking of the clock and pressure of schedules brings about. I will never stop being in love with reading. I regret many times that my imagination has seemed to die: choked by work and stress. Even in my singing, sometimes I forget that I am engaged in an art, making visions out of sound.

In the silence of my mind sometimes, as I gaze upon the sheet music that makes no sense to those who do cannot read the language that is understood by all when "spoken", my heart wraps itself around the invisible sound. Every fortissimo, a swell of passion! The movements, rhythm, all contributing to the ebb and flow of an emotion. Rubato, it says here, robbing time from another note to express a little hesitation that only sound can convey. And the decrescendo, a falling sound-- fading into the space of silence. Every single note a touch of expression, a touch of color. It creates a beautiful tapestry: how black against white could translate into a colorful woven masterpiece of sound.

Focus is a hard thing for me and I admit I have no sense of it. Not even this entry has a real focus to it as I jump from thought to thought. But I know my heart embraces these moments of sheer romanticism. Call me old-fashioned for all I care, but leave me to my music and my books and I will be happy.

It's been a while since I've updated my LJ and I do feel rather bad for doing that XD; And a little bit worse that when I come back, I do it with an update involving a list. Sigh.

But to add a little more content before the rest of the post:
I just returned from the Take and Receive concert in Ateneo tonight. Man! That was a tiring performance for me. I felt like I poured out all of myself in it. WOW. The lights against my back were scorching in sharp contrast to the cool breeze entering the church. It felt so good to be singing with so much passion. It was almost like an out of body experience. I love love loved it.

Sometime, I'll repost here pictures that a friend of mine took during the concert :3

But for now, fufufu! Christmas wishlist time!

1. Unusual rings and colorful bangles
2. Ornate headbands, either mod or 80's retro or vintage.
3. Lolita items
4. Things for Ulalume (which is basically anything that fits a doll of her size)
5. Dorrie monies
6. New make-up, preferably from Maybelline.
7. Make-up tools (Suesh brushes? Teehee!)
8. A new planner XD Hopefully one with LAAAARGE spaces for me to scribble in like last year's Starbucks planner.
9. Anything that stands out X3

... but most of all, I just want to have time for my family and friends after this intensely busy season :)

First of all, I realize how much could happen in a little moment of reading entries here on LJ. I once just browsed through one page of my f-list and all of a sudden-- BAM!-- 15 new responses on Plurk, a few new emails in my two main mailboxes and some IMs to answer. But I think it really does pay to take some time off from the busy-ness of all these other ways to get in touch with people to read through other stuff that had been happening in your friends lives. And usually those recorded here on LJ are the more contemplative types. It's really interesting :) Sometimes you have those semi-shallow things like things to do lists or little bursts of emotion, but sometimes you find some diamonds in the rough.

I blame you, Abby, for getting me into a contemplative mood XP

And about what, you may ask?

Presents :3

I'm an incredibly horrible gift-giver. Call me a Scrooge, if you wish. When it comes to buying stuff, sometimes I think about my friends, but I worry so much about a cost of an item. As much as I enjoy giving things to people, I don't enjoy the feeling of my pockets being emptied.

Which is why most likely, my presents this year would fall under this theme:
You're someone special to me, so I'll give you a little bit of my time... and money.

I think it's an apt thing considering how busy I always am ^^; I want to spend at least an hour with all my favorite people this Christmas-- and if possible, try to treat them to something edible? Or even just a small token of gratitude? Of course, I guess there'll always be some special mentions, but eh. I think somehow, making time for everyone I love is something very important to me.

I remember that back in high school, I was such a lonely kid that I'd lavishly spoil whoever were my friends at that time with goodies, but nowadays, I find it harder and harder to give physical presents with the more people I become close to, even more so get in touch with them all in person just to spend a little more time with them away from the net.

"Time is precious," they say :) I think my parents, most especially, will really appreciate it when I make time for them.

This was one epic first day :D I think I've got a great line-up of classes this sem. All looks really peachy and I'm especially looking forward to more classes with Gemino Abad X3 Speaking of which, he said something about literature that is written down as truly significant instances of human expression.

Then, does a blog entry count?

It kind of makes me wonder if we'll be taking that up in Creative Writing class. I'm pretty excited for it, too :D

Lately, most of my life's been recorded down on Plurk and in time, I eventually forget the joy of writing in long-winded passages and ramblings that don't have any limit. The world of the internet becomes such a sad place in time... everything becomes so fast that you forget to take a moment, even on a laptop, to close the rest of your tabs (or simply ignore them) and write a good long-winded journal entry.

A recollection of memory in tranquility: that's what it is. It's not exactly poetry, but at least on a blog, you have time to think-- time for yourself, time not to care about the n responses you have to answer.

I guess then, this LJ does need a lot more love than just this :D

(Nabbed from gothatheartholo)

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
hibiemi goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a Harajuku fairy princess!.
alathariel gives you 10 light yellow watermelon-flavoured pieces of taffy.
allemarthe gives you 12 red apple-flavoured gummy bats.
angstxiety tricks you! You lose 20 pieces of candy!
croix_souillees gives you 19 mottled green orange-flavoured gummy bats.
eldritch00 tricks you! You get a wad of paper.
frostedberry gives you 19 light blue coconut-flavoured gummy worms.
hamster_friend tricks you! You get a rotten egg.
miztylaneous gives you 8 dark green strawberry-flavoured pieces of taffy.
semeru gives you 14 mottled green strawberry-flavoured pieces of taffy.
hibiemi ends up with 62 pieces of candy, a wad of paper, and a rotten egg.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

Heehee! Candy! :D I can't help but be terribly amused that Sir Andrew gave me a wad of paper, though XDD Ooh! Let's try this again...

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
hibiemi goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Ulalume's doll with Ulalume as my owner.
arbitrarytrash gives you 2 purple blueberry-flavoured jawbreakers.
arsenicgraffiti gives you 6 yellow grape-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
erellim gives you 11 softly glowing root beer-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
jylichan gives you 14 light orange licorice-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
kammikins tricks you! You lose 20 pieces of candy!
pithetaphish gives you 7 red-orange coffee-flavoured nuggets.
quavi gives you 5 orange blueberry-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
tala_at_buwan gives you 1 softly glowing chocolate-flavoured pieces of taffy.
twilight_legend tricks you! You lose 25 pieces of candy!
vox_veritas gives you 5 orange coffee-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
hibiemi ends up with 6 pieces of candy.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

Lycoris! Sammy! Why you steal my candy? D8 Well, anyway, this makes up for a crappy Halloween spent at home u_u

Gab (c0ntemplatist) commented on my last post:
Good luck with the first list, have fun with the second list~
I'm curious as to how much of it's done, seeing as it's the 26th right now.

So in the spirit of answering this question, I'll go update this journal~ :D

Here's the list from last update. Stuff I've done or I've stopped worrying about are struck out X3

Things To Do
-Go to rehearsals
-Sing at engagements
-Go to the damned recollection
-Fix ManikaManila's tags
-Take care of people and see who are coming to the meet
-Stuff some guys in dresses
-Film silliness~
-Call for the LFC Portfolio (oh noes D: But no one seems to notice my emails!)
-Survive killer week with LOTS of work up in the North to do D:
-Edit and post photos taken during the epic weekend.

Things I Want To Do
-Sew things for Ulalume
-Read a long list of books
-Spend time with Billie and friends (Thank you epic weekend!)
-GO HOME
-STAY HOME
-SLEEP
-Do fun things like read and sew :3
-Finish Crisis Core before the sem starts again

Well, it looks like I still have much to do :\ Sigh. Included in that list for my killer week is a meeting for the LFC Creatives tomorrow and a photoshoot for THE GUIDON with Ulalume on Wednesday. Guh x_x;; Busy Krishna's busy.

Also, I'm doll-angsting a little. SOMEONE ON MANIKAMANILA IS SELLING HER SD10 SARA ;_; I really want her to go to a good home. I still want Elena for Ichigo but-- GAH. IT'S A FOUR SISTERS. IT'S A CLASSIC VOLKS WITHOUT THE PAIN OF SHIPPING FROM JAPAN. AUGH AUGH AUGH AUGH AUGH AUGH.

I feel like crying now D: Someone please assure me she's going to a good home...

I thought to myself while I was away from my comp: Why on Earth do I perceive myself to be so busy? Is there some possible correspondence between the amount of work you have and the amount of leisure you desire to have?

I guess that goes true for me. Supposedly, I have absolutely no work this sembreak but I have rehearsals. Rehearsals that require me to go all the way from the South to the North three times a week. It's not bad, really, when you think of it. But when you notice how other things in your "things you want to do" list on your sembreak want to compete for your attention, your brain simply stresses itself out and you perceive yourself to be so busy.

Oh dear.

So because of that, now I have a "things TO do" and "things I WANT to do" list.

Things To Do
-Go to rehearsals
-Sing at engagements
-Go to the damned recollection
-Fix ManikaManila's tags
-Take care of people and see who are coming to the meet
-Stuff some guys in dresses
-Film silliness~
-Call for the LFC Portfolio (oh noes D: But no one seems to notice my emails!)

Things I Want To Do
-Sew things for Ulalume
-Read a long list of books
-Spend time with Billie and friends
-GO HOME
-STAY HOME
-SLEEP
-Do fun things like read and sew :3
-Finish Crisis Core before the sem starts again

Somehow, I really wish I had a way to be relaxed again. I think Plurk simply adds to the strain, maybe? Sometimes I get too tired just answering and answering and answering Plurks.

Also, lesson of the day:
NEVER LET A MAN TAKE CARE OF DRESS-MAKING UNLESS HE'S EITHER GAY OR OBSESSIVE OVER DETAILS DX

Continued from this post. Also, this post is dedicated to Anj (battiegotriddim since this was around the time she comes into the meet now XDD



( Do vampires really sparkle like Edward Cullen? )

Dedicated to Nicky (nikittin), Tito Bobby and Ram (mobes92) and Sheryll (h_e_n_j_i_n) XD Oh dear. I really be more prompt, shouldn't I? I'm really sorry this took so long!



( Anyway, onwards with the pictures! )

To be continued... XD

Ahahaha, since my brain's been all broken from Pulan's Lit Crit finals, I shall indulge in therapeautic dolly plotting! 8D Well, mainly because I think another revision of dolly plans is in order =w= But definitely, my next doll WILL be SD13 Elena.

But that doesn't mean I can't think about other dolls, right? :3

( OMG DORRIE PLANS )

But anyway, to appease the dollie love for now, have some silver-haired Ulalume picspam :3


Silvery-haired Lu :3 Also, soft flash. ♥

Guh. Thanks to Bea now I feel like buying Lu silvery hair asdjfklasdjflsjdflsd. Ah well... such is teh hobby =w=;;

"People keep memories in lockets, right?"

Finally, I've been able to update Dormitorya Tzara XD And with Ulalume's new eyes, too. Also, PHEW. The bulk of hell month has already passed. Now, all I have left is lots to study for and one last paper to write ♥ I also have to go fix up stuff at ManikaManila, too! Upcoming meet is coming up! 8O

Also, Tin is finally back in Manila, huzzah! But now, this means that I'm the odd one out in DormiTzara because both Tin and Feliz are in Makati (or around Makati) and I'm in Katipunan XD

I'll have to happily admit I feel very productive tonight X3 Hee. I'm almost motivated to make more new things for Lu despite having so many unfinished things, too. Ah well. Let's see how things'll go.

All I know is that I'm really excited for sembreak XDD But at the same time, I dread all its expenses.

Because some things like finding yourself awake on a school day at the break of dawn doesn't really happen that often... unless you're that fond of cramming. I know lots of people do all-nighters, especially people in Advertising, but I can't help but feel amused by the simple act of staying up all night just to finish papers. I know I didn't accomplish much tonight, but ah well~ at least one of many papers can finally rest ♥

Now to do all these other papers =w=

In Ateneo this week:

-A fantastic person, a great dancer died. He was a batchmate and his death shakes me to a metaphysical unease. It makes me scared, but at the same time, terribly sad that the good die young.

-On the other hand, WE WON. YES, FINALLY, ATENEO BAGS THE UAAP SENIORS BASKETBALL CHAMPIONSHIP! (edit: oh yay, political correctedness!) And somehow, despite the thrill of the win, the campus was still when Ameko and I walked out of the caf. And the bells of Gesu rang through the rainy night.

Plurk takes up a lot of my time nowadays, but I still love coming back to you, LJ ♥ Your quiet pace always keeps me happy.

FINALLY ;w; Back in Paranaque after two weeks of not coming home. Happy Krishna is happy ♥ Today was probably one of the most exhausting days, evar. I overslept because I tried to experiment with having my phone vibrate instead of ring to wake me up because of sound-sensitive consideration for foreign roomies?

... ttly f-locking this entry nao for safety XDD Unlocked again just 'coz :3

Vibration will NEVER wake me up :| Srsly. I need a loud dose of El Guayaboso blasted into my ear at an annoying loudness to actually wake me up mainly because I sleep liek a rock although I wake very easily to loud sounds.

Then again, I'm half-deaf in one ear, which definitely explains the annoying loudness that's required for me to actually wake up.

But yay! I got to Philo class on time :3 But on the downside-- no morning coffee = braindead!Krishna D: And I was like that the ENTIRE day until I had coffee with Ameko-sempai at around 4pm in Caf Up before going over to the Pinoy Woodstock to check up on friends at Manikako :3 And YAY! Long time no see! 8D I got to see Fabo again! ♥ Billie would be so glad to hear that he's back, I believe XDD

And finally, PEEs for teh Glee Club D8 Totally nerve-wrecking. And-- I never could believe I could become so exhausted from what was almost like a regular rehearsal session-- only graded. Next week is the actual Evaluation x_x DUN-DUN-DUUUUUUUUUN~ IhopeIdidwellIhopeIdidwellIhopeIdidwellImafraidIdidnt? *horror*

Speaking of Glee Club, hi thar Abby! XDD I don't usually greet new friends on my LJ, but I guess you deserve a special mention since you're the first GC member I've added over here :3

And as for pimpage-- PLURK. You know you want to~ ♥ It's just like LJ. Only tl;dr'ed :3 I usually talk about tabletop RPG (specifically: Maid, the Roleplaying Game) there since I met my RPG friends through there, though XDD And if not that, I'm talking about daily life :3 Hee~ just like here on LJ. Just with more brevity XD

For now, I'll happily sit around here, finally reunited with lovely little Ulalume ;w;